12-15-09.1

Dear D,

Well, my poor wife is currently on her second dose of antibiotics. The pneumonia is proving to be a SOB to get rid of, but this round of antibiotics appears to be kicking it’s ass, so, we should all be healthy by Christmas.

My upped dosage of Zolie has made me mentally healthy as well. I’m not as angry on the drive to and from work. TW says that she needs to take some as well since I’m so calm now. The voices are still there but they don’t have the affect they did before. I can tune them out much better with the higher dosage.

The kids are all home for the holidays. LP is finishing up her second to last semester of high school. Next year it’s off to college and it’s naked 24/7 for the TW and I. Well, that’s if OS can get his butt out of our house. He’s working on it though, so he’ll probably be able to get the hell out of dodge by next fall. CB will be a senior in college next year so he’ll be out of the house as well.

Other than that, things are just rolling along. If I don’t post again before the holiday D, have a very Merry Christmas or a happy whatever you may celebrate.

Personally, I’m a Pagan.

12-7-09.1

Dear D,

Just some random observations:

People can’t drive worth a damn, especially during the first measurable snow of the season.

The higher dose of Zolie seems to be working fine.

As much as it will never happen, I’d like TW and I to become swingers.

I’ve come to the conclusion that my SILs are ungrateful bitches, well two out of three of them anyway.

I’d like to see someone else (several men) come on TW’s face and tits and clothes. Then, I want to take pics of it.

I’m a lucky SOB that TW stayed with me over the years.

I have no friends, but I’m starting to accept that much better than before. (Yeah, I know D, like you haven’t heard that before!)

I reinstated my Facebook account today but then immediately deactivated it again. I just wanted to satisfy my urges to become active on Facebook again. I don’t think anyone noticed, and yes, it did satisfy my urges.

I think I’m finally over my illness that I had on Thanksgiving. WHEW!

I’m being more productive at work, sort of.

I love sex.

I love thinking about sex.

I love fantasizing about sex.

I wish I could make money by having sex.

Did I mention I love sex?

I love listening to music.

Music has formed my existence over the years.

Politicians suck, no matter what party they’re affiliated with.

There should be more nudity on TV rather than more violence. Being naked never hurt anyone.

My SILs really need to show me their tits on a regular basis.

The voices in my head are much quieter these days. Thanks 200mg of Zolie!

I’m not as despondent as I was before the Zolie upgrade.

I’m trying to be more grateful for the things I have rather than trying to obtain more stuff.

I’d really like to see what the girls I lusted after in grade/high school look like as women, especially the really good looking ones.

I’m leaving work early today. YAY comptime!

I had the house to myself yesterday D, and I loved every last second of it!

I’m still a loner.

I hope all my former friends and girlfriends have GREAT holidays. I wish and hope this every year D. Yeah, I’m sappy that way.

12-2-09.1

Dear D,

Tiger jokes, too early? Nah.

Numbers 9, 12 & 13 are the best, IMHO.

> Joke 1:

>

> Did you hear that Tiger hit a fire hydrant and a tree…he couldn’t

> decide between a wood and an iron.

>

> Joke 2:

>

> They asked Tiger’s wife what she was doing out of the house at 2 in the

> morning and she said she was out clubbing.

>

> Joke 3:

>

> What’s the difference between a Cadillac Escalade and a Titleist golf

> ball? Tiger can drive a golf ball over 350 yards.

>

> Joke 4:

>

> Tiger Woods is so rich that he owns lots of expensive cars. Now he has a

> hole in one.

>

> Joke 5:

>

> Perhaps Tiger should be using a driver?

>

> Joke 6:

>

> This is the first time Tiger’s ever failed to drive 300 yards

>

> Joke 7:

>

> Apparently, Tiger admitted this crash was the closest shave he’s ever

> had. So Gillette has dropped his contract.

>

> Joke 8:

>

> After a wayward drive, Tiger Woods found water before nestling behind a

> tree

>

> Joke 9:

>

> Apparently, the only person who can beat Tiger Woods with a golf club is

> his wife

>

> Joke 10:

>

> Tiger drives his Escalade, hits a tree hits a fire hydrant, goes

> airborne and lands on a stranger’s front lawn.

>

> So “Is Tigers’ Caddie on the green in two? “

>

> Joke 11:

>

> I’m not surprised to hear about Tiger’s crash – he hasn’t been able to

> drive straight for years

>

> Joke 12:

> Ping just offered Elin Woods an endorsement contract pushing her own set

> of drivers. Said the clubs are to be named Elin Woods… and marketed as

> “clubs you can beat Tiger with.”

>

> Joke 13:

> Claims that Elin Woods was using a golf club as a “Rescue Club” now have

> been proved to be untrue as it now appears she was actually trying to

> knock the shit out of a Driver.

>

> Joke 14:

> News travels fast. The Chinese are already making a movie about Tiger

> Woods’ crash. They are calling it, ” Scratching Swede, Lying Tiger.

>

> Joke 15:

> Tiger just changed his nickname but still kept it in the cat family–his

> new name?: Cheetah

11-24-09.1

Dear D,

The voices in my head (all of them D) wish you a Happy Thanksgiving. As you well know, we’ll be sick this week so dinner’s gonna suck, BIG TIME!

So D, enjoy yourself. How do the new meds feel? Yeah, I upped the Zolie to 200mg a day. So far so good eh D? Yeah, we’ll just have to sit back and see what the hell happens.

11-18-09.1

Dear D,

Still majorly fucked in the head today D. At least I’m no longer suicidal, although I do have Suicidal Tendencies (Send Me Your Money, Get Whacked) Of, course no one will understand that reference D. They’re all too young and too busy listening to all the PaRappa The Rapper shiat. No, I agree D, some of it is pretty good but most of it is crap.

So D, I’ve been trying to work myself out of this hole with some good old fashioned Heavy Metal rock-n-roll. You know, the good stuff. So far though, it’s been unsuccessful. Maybe I’m finally hitting my middle age crazy phase (for real this time) Nothing is bringing me pleasure. I killed off my Facebook account. Other than family, and the odd friend of a friend here and there, I had no friends at all. I friended a high school buddy of mine but he never returned the favor. I guess I was/am an asshole D. My only friend these days are the porn sites I visit (Wifeysworld.com and Voyeurweb) Oh, and let’s not forget the Flickr Groups D. Lots of fun there.

So, what to do D, what to do. Have I tipped over the edge? Is it time to up the meds again? Does it really fucking matter any more? I certainly don’t think so.

11-16-09.1

BOOM, BOOM, OUT GO THE LIGHTS.

Dear D,

Well, I think this is it. As much as I like getting shit out of my head, it doesn’t appear to be working too well anymore. I’m thinking of ending things and just letting my head fill with shit until it explodes. Yes D, I’ve already taken my meds and had my first cup of coffee this morning. I’m just tired of everything D. It’s time to go.

So, for all of you who have stuck around (all 6 of  you I believe) thank you. Hope things go your way, they certainly didn’t go mine.

11-13-09.1

Dear D,

It’s happened again D. My department went out to lunch to celebrate a co-workers 20th anniversary and they didn’t invite me. I don’t know what to feel.

11-09-09.1

Dear D,

Ah, another glorious Monday! Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, sorry, couldn’t say that with a straight face. Busy weekend D. A trip, a party, computer woes, it all added up to one hell of a weekend. I’m tired today D. Very, very tired. I don’t think I’m depressed, just physically and emotionally down. Hopefully, things will pick up soon. Been busy today at work, so that’s good.

Well, here’s to a great week!

11-4-09.1

Dear D,

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,

It’s Not About Obama

YEAH, RIGHT.

11-02-09.2

Dear D,

Must remember NOT to blog before having my first cup of java in the morning.

Death watch 2009 is off, for now.